Love,
the only fixation that I'd ever truly looked for
but is doomed to never be able to find

Being able to remember everything or having the ability to forget all?
Oh the shifts and changes of life
I can never make up my mind

I could never love him, unrequitedly. Told myself over and over again
Yet I kept falling into this rabbit hole, built up by the image of his,
further and further each time

Depression.

Someday,
she can't even feel her own presence.
Dry orbit.
Wanted to cry out all of her vague sadness.
Hopelessly,
Add green to her blue
Bring color to her mood.
Vainnessly,
Nothing ever worked.

She needs love, he wants lust
They just fcked

She's so hopeless, still he's reckless
Now they're done

Yours
it's all in one's head that care
and they're all just steaks, just shapes, just silhouette.

He looked at me
if he ever really did
the way our sun looked at us creatures
Just a flawed shade of grays,
trifling,
insignificant.

And it burned like hell, his glare
but it can be so mild,
so tepid
too tepid

Now tell me
can i not
need
him ?

Now you're here and soon you're gone
Still I'm here but then I'm not

How little is too little care that one could show?
And how much is too much neglect that one could give?

Dark
Chocolate
Mint
A taste of my love

Bitter
Sweet
Mentholated
Numb

She's craving for tear
But her eyes are dry
She desires to cry
Though her mind is stoned
Breathing in the sound
So she breathes out her heart
Breathing in the scar
Now she breathes out her life

Walk with me through this path of life
Let not pass by, two perfect strangers

Will you ever. . .
Will you ever hear my lungs, screaming out your name,every breath I take
Will you ever meet these eyes, searching for those yours, longing for one glance
And will you ever find, that silhouette of mine, drifting through your steps
Like the shadow of yours, binded, no sight left. Just silent
So will you ever ?

A little bit of sight left behind by day
A little bit of wight scattered in twilight
A little bit of light glimmer through nightfall
A little bit of wight, lonely amidst vast sky

love you to the moon and back
back
to myself

Cried her a river
Loathed her an ocean
still, I'm a black hole, swallowing itself and everything around it for loving her

The first love that last for life
The first love that also is the last

Called out his name
little that she knew
that would be her last

"Blow out these candles
for all my wishes is your"

and so
his room returned to darkness
as the light in her eyes had now gone

free fall is just a downward motion
and rupture is no more than an initial state of existence

He's uninhabitable, I'm rootless
His core is cavernous and mine's rotten 

Oh I, oh our love, oh your sadness
died in me, stayed within, kept haunting my path
Hold this moment, our past, your sorrow
cried for me, shed these tears, on one last serenade

I'm water hyacinth
For you're water under the bridge
Flow away, away
Follow you, always, always

She contrives a sphere
Full of green and vivid and black
Fill with tender but chaos but dark
Around her
and
Inside her

one bite
full mouth bittered
10% sweet
whole heart filled

wash down throat
again,
emptiness
leave on tongue
coated nostalgia

reminisced
that bittersweet sweet
ruminated
those bittersweet tastes

In a starless night,
under florid sky
waiting for the Wind,
I'm waiting for You.

Come to me, Lover, come!
Quietly, in translucency.

With the wind,
flow raving floret scents
Smeared upon your path,
grim blossom's remains.

Closer and colder, my love
Embrace me, through sharp air, tightly
Kiss thee, kiss me, defined kisses
Leave me longing, oh my shapeless lover.

There is an ocean in your eyes
The dark, calm, deserted one
Still façade covers breaking waves
Bleak groundswell shrouds gold quagmire

When I die, burry with me my dead melody
Hold in your eyes, these sorrows, don't cry
and my dire
Darling!
just say goodbye.

Plant for me, seas of jasmine
since redolence lessen grievous death
Leave on my grave, our dying bouquet
and Darling,
forget about me.

I love rains
,
For when the world surround me
Faded away
For when the sound around me
Raised in silence

And slowly,
It died

Not just a bit
And not just inside...

Watering eyes, sleepless night
Heaving moonlight, restless tide

Lone walk, linger through drab graves
Gaunt tread, buried in sharp waves

Sable ocean reflected empty sky
Sombre eyes restrained sundry motions

Vanished vanishing point
Rendering render null and void

9 years passed.
You still wander in my thoughts, sometimes
and in my dream, lately
but it isn't love.

I forgot
the bitter, muted sweet,
and green unripe taste
that almost,
almost bloomed into love.

You are not the only one.
But with you,
with the memories of you
there's always that distinctive unnamed feeling
So chronic and aching
Yet love, it is not.

What you are
is an idle obduracy,
a sentimentalized idea
taking the shape of a boy
I once barely knew.

Ultramarine, my love for you
Ultramarine, our distance between